asshole. i knew it. ppl like u. are'nt even suppose to be trusted at all ! i mean it ! back off alright ? i never want anything to do with u again. the deal is off ! it's gonna end up shredded. i'm done with u !"charles, thanks for everything man.
""claire, thanks for all the support yesterday.
"well, met up with charles last evening. right after classes. we only had an hr. and yepps, he's off for his patrolling duty around the coast. explained everything, he understood and yepps, he explained to me what was right and wrong. how cool is it ? especially someone who is 22 yrs old ? haha ! smth happened in my house last night. caused the entire family to flip ! well, that's that. isabelle didn't come for classes yesterday. got kinda pissed off. but well, it's cool. applied for the [ outreach ministry ] yay !?! helping those needy ppl in palangi vilage. :D gosh ! can't wait for the mission trip to start :D went for tuition today. the table was practically littered with sweets. thanks to HER ! haha (: going to the movies later on. [ frobidden kingdom ] catching it with my family members. it has been a long time since we last caught it as a family :D can't wait ! gonna send the letter to auntie mie and my cousin later on. hope to get replies real soon :D-back off man !-
eeekkks ! i think i should watch what i say next time. William has alrd catched the show. geez. so wanna go out for movies. however,i'm stuck at home, mugging like mad for MYE. borrowing girlfriends bag on monday. wonder whether should i bring two big plastic bags to school. hoho's. going for classes later with izzey.mumzees went to the D&G shop and yay ! she fixed my D&G [ dolce&gabbana ] belt. finally :D slept pretty early last night. skipped my chinese tuition and yepps, it all went down the drain just to stay back in sch to do chinese hw. okay. fine. was'nt me who did it. many thanks to girlfriend, koky, and siying. borrowed siying's E maths book yesterday. GF took action and it did'nt really turned out what we both expected it to be. can't blame him for being so persistent. hope both their feelings will just die down. F accompanied me to the busstop yesterday. "tell me the next time around when u're more or less clear and no longer confused and comfortable to tell me what u wanted to :D "and yepps. the C girls won the match against RSS. went in to watch for a while. but had to leave for some realy urgent matters. girlfriend- and yay !?! arina got her 2nd homerun. bet she feels great about it man ! way to go girl :D keep it up ! so damn proud of her man ! haha (: NAZRY was hilarious. i mean naming personal belongings ? haha ! loved the one especially with the name "vanessa" ! :D[ the whole sixsome ] - hannah called me a few days back asking the dates for the outings. really missed talking to her. shawn called too :D !! gosh ! it's been ages since i last had contact with him. i miss him so badly (: people are alrd starting to plan for the -going out's- during june holidays. yepps, holidays are gonna be a real kick with edwin and joel :D miss them so much. haha - got a text from police coast guard best mate, mokeybutt, it has been ages monkey ! (: hope u get admitted :D-dont' u dare do it. i ain't someone who can be triffled with alright ?-
GOSH ! now u seem to care ! u're making me go crazy my dear- !?! why are ur actions and words so contradicting ?[ today ]i', trying to cope with my thoughts and school work. sigh. got back physics test- 22/30. chem test- 17/30. why fav sub and yet, i'm scoring like crap ! goodness gracious huh ? MYE's coming and i'm only starting to mug hard. girlfriend has started like so way long ago. hoho's. hope it ain't too late to start. i don't care if i were to fail the test now. what's important is MYE. i'm practically gonna flunk my E maths and A maths and ss. well, trying real hard to forget everything and start studying. sooo heeding GF'S advice. GF and i literally left cheesecake. and yepps, real srry cheesy D: hope he forgives us :D gonna have remedials and extra classes. how typical school life is ? sang ruo's gonna give me the photocopied piece and i'm so gonna be struggling doing it. chinese, puhlease- just finished revision for A maths [ chpt 4 ]. gonna ask my dad to explain everything on physics tonight. thank goodness i've a dad who studied physics and chem till uni. WHEW !GF and i were practically laughing about the two peeps infront of us just now. weird get-togethers. haha ! i miss those times with her. can't wait for the june holidays :D well, calling GF later for bag. see ya my lil earthlings :D[ sexy can i ? just PARDON my manners ]
exactly how i wanted it to be - PREVIOUSLY- IMY girlfriend :D that carefreeness and the blow of the wind swooshing thorugh my hair-
the feeling of depression has been a total hungover for me. empowering me in everything. is it really that worth it ? u gave me hope and now, u've somehow lowered the bar. now, are u going to leave me stranded in a world where there are uncertainties all around me ? is there more to it than what it seemed to be. keeping them from me for the purpose of some cliche ? was it just a stab behind the back of disacknowledgment ? i don't want your ignorance, i want your awareness. the word itself ain't as simple as it seems. i saw you and i clearly know that u did too, and yet everything was as still as the way it was. i really wonder if it was just a fantasy dream in which belongs to a little girl or was it what ppl call it, - reality - did u just leave the matter where it is now and move on ? or were u dumbstruck and not having figured out your next move ? these questions, they keep swiriling round and round. never ending. not knowing whether to do this or to do that. puzzling is'nt it ?
-wishing for smth miraculous to happen-
hey u gorgeous ppl :D it has been a very up and down mth for me. there has been like so many remedials and hw. plus this entire week has been filled with tests. had english test, chinese listening compre and physics and chem. busy busy busy. so little ppl, are revolving around my world that i my scope of ppl is only thorugh a camera lens. weird things are totally happening in sec 3. and "hang in there girlfriend ! everything will be alright ? i'll be there for u girl :D forever and ever ! (: what are girlfriends for huh ?"[today]susie ain't talking to me. and that sucks. farhan was bloody funny today. that big himbo dumbo farhan ! haha. kept using his hands to disturb me DURING a test. his legs kept kicking mine too ! goodness. him ? going breakdancing ? don't make me laugh ! GF was stressed today and yesterday. hope she gets well :D got freaking hell scolded by mdm lim. how much i hate her. and she scolded me for things that i did'nt even know. had to stay back from now on to clean up the class. she's just sooooo unfair. now i understand why marcus hated her. talked to geliang today. weird that he suddenly brought up certain matters. today i was happy for a while. and when the day goes on, i became depressed. those eyes of his. i can't conclude what he was actually trying to say. i had a really gd talk with GF. :D practically poured out everything. heard some news from GF today and it came to me with a shocking pierce of doubts. X: i trusted [her] so deeply, looks like i was mistaken. sigh. so many conflicts round and round. when will it ever end ? ppl are having a time of their lives while mine is only starting :D-i'm so thankful and relieved of what u said to me. i have so many questions that i want to ask u. i really hope that there would just be one time ! many doors that were once locked will be opened..-[]take a bow-rihanna[]
well, nth has been up lately. went to church yesterday. and my group was awesome puhleaseee. LOVE IT ! the girl is sweet, and this guy named frederic is super hilarious and yea, kind too to a certain extent. hoho's. there's this girl whose hair keeps touching mine and it's really irriating. she's short and stubby. went to eat at marche. there's only one restaurant in the entire of SG. had one big glass of chocolate mouse. yummy yum. had chicken and other sweet nice stuff. went to [ m)phosis ] to buy this stilleto red heels. and it's gorgeous ! [ today ! ]had tuition and i'm gonna start doing school hw and studying too ! gosh ! tiring. having a physics test and i'm gonna mug hard for it man ! erm. english test is tmr. history is on thurs. yeapps. that's all for the updates. gonna be watching [movies in 2009 and 2008]....-the other boleyn girl-definitely, maybe-prom night / april 11 2008-the forbidden kingdom / april 18 2008-hellboy 2 the golden army / july 11 2008-angles and demons / may 15 2009-the chronicles of narnia / may 16 2008-confessions of a shopaholic / TBA 2008-ghost town / TBA 2008-harry poter and the half blood prince / nov 21 2008-indiana jones and the kingdom of the crystal skull / may 22 2008-iron man / may 2 2008-the mummy. tomb of the dragon emperor / aug 8 2008-sex and the city. the movie / may 30 2008
HEY PEEPS ! this entire week was reallllyyyy boring. everybody is off/gone because of speech day performances. i mean it's like wow !?! and i've heard sooo much stuff about that guy that i'm so hating him right now. i mean it's like why don't u chase after ppl who are of ur own class/position ! cheescake should know what i mean. anyways, there's plenty of tests and yepps, it's pretty hectic. the only thing i get now is ss, chem, A math and english and then it's the end ! yea. hope to do well X: well, yesterday i talked to charles and guess where he was ? he was on duty patrolling the waters on a boat last night. i mean HUH ?!? msging at the same time. what a monkey slacker X: haha. well, i've got to do hw right now, hope issey ain't mad at me X: SORRY ! bye peeps. [ keeping my fingers crossed :D ]
