exactly how i wanted it to be - PREVIOUSLY- IMY girlfriend :D that carefreeness and the blow of the wind swooshing thorugh my hair-
the feeling of depression has been a total hungover for me. empowering me in everything. is it really that worth it ? u gave me hope and now, u've somehow lowered the bar. now, are u going to leave me stranded in a world where there are uncertainties all around me ? is there more to it than what it seemed to be. keeping them from me for the purpose of some cliche ? was it just a stab behind the back of disacknowledgment ? i don't want your ignorance, i want your awareness. the word itself ain't as simple as it seems. i saw you and i clearly know that u did too, and yet everything was as still as the way it was. i really wonder if it was just a fantasy dream in which belongs to a little girl or was it what ppl call it, - reality - did u just leave the matter where it is now and move on ? or were u dumbstruck and not having figured out your next move ? these questions, they keep swiriling round and round. never ending. not knowing whether to do this or to do that. puzzling is'nt it ?
-wishing for smth miraculous to happen-
