okay, this is gonna be the last post till the exams are over. and man, i'm
dreading for it to end. zillions of good stuff are gonna happen right after that (: woo- in the meantime, i've to mug real hard.
Just finished tution and YAY ! i finally understood the topic. sketching graphs is such a chore. and thank goodness, i completed my A maths hw which i've been owing my teacher /:
[last night was till 4 only D: i'm sorry !? and fatigue doesn't just go off in just a flash :P there has to be a reasonable explanation behind it. haha (: must be my magic which worked (: hoho ! really apologize for mentioning them. especially him. guys will remain guys won't they ? :P but still feeling guilty D: haha. the dream wasn't far-fetched alright ? if u were to really get 8, pls do what u did (: i'm gonna love the gazes and stares that i am bound to attract :P and u ARE gonna make it happen. oh ! i promised u and i didn't go back on it (: this column is specially for u-]
my dad flew to Penang to attend the funeral today. my great granny died yesterday morning and it was a painless death. now, i believe she's in a better place somewhere (: dying at an age of 96 is remarkable-
golf or perhaps learning french ?
he must like her, he has to, he must !?
-i won't lose sight of u, as i'll always have your hand as a guide. and i'll cling on tight to it-
Interesting, u blogged before u even text me. How ironical i must say. Anyway how, i'm not gonna quarrel with u anymore.i wish u the best of luck in the upcoming exams, and do your best in it (:
It's a saturday and exams are approaching nearer and nearer. I've got many subs that i've yet to cover, which is seriously freaking me out. However, i'll listen to your words and not stress out (:
Physics : so screwed.
Chinese : got to start reading the handbook /:
History : chpt 6 [ UNTOUCHED ?! ]
Ss : UNTOUCHED ?!
i hope i've enough time ? was feeling terrible over the results that i got. i'm glad u're there for me (:
woo ! saw Aaron's brother on the way to sch the other day. he was pretty surprised to see me there. hah.
my dad bought 'the scripts' album today and there was a pretty funny story behind it. lame in fact.
studied almost the entire day today and thanks to the pills, got pretty drowsy and was actually struggling to concentrate /: and yes, i'm still sick. that sucks real bad D:
yepp, that's that. there's this new song which is uber cool. and i'm listening to it everyday ever since i heard it. the song is 'just stand up' by various artist coming together to sing a song for the cancer patients (:
'why do we fall ? so that we learn to pick ourselves up again. i'll never stay beaten, i know u won't either.' - thanks.
i've no idea what u're doing. are u just trying to start a fight with me because u find it very entertaining ? do u just want the world to hate me and to actually allow them to think u're correct and i'm in the wrong ? do u want to make me embarrassed and ashamed ? or do u just want to let everybody know how u're feeling about this entire affair ? well, i'm alright with that, because i know my conscience is clear. whatever game u're trying to play, i'm not going to be fooled by it. i think the only thing u're good at is to insult ppl. i must say those books that u've been reading about high school life and the things that girls do in the US has really trained u up for these type of circumstances. how perfectly executed i must say. my only advice to u is that if u don't know anything, keep your big mouth shut ! and don't just assume.
i admit that i said confirmation is important, and that now, i'm saying another thing. u might think that i'm some "plastic bitch"/"plastic slug". those are your own opinions, i can't change it. but the truth is, from the very beginning. i've never thought confirmation was important. i did not tell you my honest view about this. and the only reason i'm going for classes, is because i didn't want to disappoint my mum. i told u that because i thought it would at least do u some good. i did not tell the truth from the start, and perhaps because of that, u think of me as some liar. i thought that if i were'nt to care about confirmation (which is the truth), i can actually make your perception change and not to have you having the same thinking as me. i thought i was actually helping u and doing u a favour in which u would be grateful for, but now, it seems like u don't appreciate it at all. i apologize for not telling u about my thinking from the start.
AND.
the reason i wrote confirmation was not important is not because i don't have any friends. i didn't think it was important from the start, and that was way before i even knew u. and god means everything to me. even if i don't think confirmation is important, god is of great importance to me. and it's true that i've no other friends whom i actually start a real conversation with except u. and i did not give any excuses about it. but so what if u have more friends than i do ? that doesn't affect me. i've no idea why u would want to bring HIM into the picture. he has nth to do with this. and what's the point of actually mentioning frederick ? why mention whether he's sweet or not ? does he being sweet have any relevance to whatever we're arguing about ? or do u have a hidden agenda ? the point is, there's no point on wrting so much when they're only based on assumptions. and one last thing. does me wearing my mum's clothes bother or have any relevance to u in any way ? so what if i were to wear them ? i'm not like u where u get clothes almost every time u want them as i don't work to get the expenses to actually buy them. and i bet many other ppl wear their mum's clothes too. there's nth wrong with that. what u wear does not define u as a person, as what truly matters is what's inside- i'm not going to say anything more as i know it will never end. i'm through arguing with you.
am sick D: didn't attend school today and i've to really get started on my physics worksheets /:
"i'm so relieved that u did well (: real srry about last night alright ? and 8 times is alot (: "
okay, this feeling sucks so bad. this is totally driving me nuts D: well, i've just got to get a hold of myself, and this is like the toughest thing D: sigh, but the end result is always the sweetest.THURSDAYwent out girlfriend. was a very enlightening trip (: i'm finally able to actually go out with her. and i've got to compliment her on her red and white striped shirt. was beautiful. bought a pair of heels. she bought the same pair but with a different colour, and the best part, we have the same shoe size :D bought another pair of earings. i lost the exact same pair a few years back and i'm not gonna lose it again this time :P JX cancelled his dinner outing and she met up with manu instead (: i went out with Issac after that. i bet he agreed that it was a very fruitful and fufilling trip :P hope u enjoyed it, it held many memories-FRIDAYmy school hw are not even done up yet. i left chinese and physics /: had tuition and i have to agree it was very thrilling :P sneaking out to be exact.SATURDAYtoday was seriously very depressing. Went up to the little hill together. what a pity that it wasn't late at night where the stars would be twinkling non-stop. haha :P there wasn't any church today and well, confirmation is really stressing me out. gladys keeps calling me to hand in the form and blah blah blah. GOSH ! when will it ever stop ?! anyway how, i don't really the see the difference in getting confirmed or not. u still believe in him and that's what matters. when did it ever become so complicated ? geez.SUNDAYhad tuition and i actually have to start reading through the entire textbook to actually remember everything again /: what a hassle. oh well, i recieved your text and "yes, i really really do too (:" okay, gtg. have plenty of hw to gao dim :P-remember what u're suppose to bring tmr AND the timetable-want any of mine ?
it's the holidays ! WEETS- a pretty relaxed week. finally got the period of resting time that i wanted after weeks of classes.
met up with issac for breakfast. Attended A maths remedial yesterday and i'm starting to hate trigonometric ratios /: skipped SS remedial. wonder if mdm lim would find out. hah ! it rained again yesterday, as always. headed to LJS with the a bunch of ppl from S2. he had seriously matured since last year. from what i observed. all in all, had a delicious meal (:
FRIDAY
went out with I and headed down to town. was suppose to hang out with hannah at vivo. but she cancelled the outing. anyway how, it was a lovely evening. the walk we went through was unimaginable. a BIG apology to hannah and hasanah, for not being able to meet u and for not being able to go out with u respectively. accidentally took his ipod touch. and well, i don't feel guilty :P love the shirt btw (:
it has been raining these days and yesterday was the only day where i actually love the rain like i've never loved it before. it was very sweet and thoughtful of u to go to such an extent. i will never forget it (:
can't wait for the outing in thursday with girlfriend. YEAH ! :D
rubies will do just fine-they sparkle almost instinctively.
