damn this feeling. the moment u have it, u lose it. the moment u want it, u don't want it anymore. what's up with me ? 'are u always this emotional'-(a question that was posted just for me). there's so much to life than just about one thing. well said, i know. but what the fuck am i suppose to do at this point ? all i've been doing are just mistakes- i just read a friend's blog and it turned out that his situation is exactly the same as mine, except for the fact that he's a guy and he's STILL in a relationship. and he's coping so well with it ! that's the part that gets me. perhaps it's just the age difference. whatever..
if getting dumped is hell, i think this is much more than hell. could someone help fast forward my life to another 2 more years ? the WORST part of it all, i've screwed up a friend ! is this retribution, or is it just me making the wrong decisions, as always ? i fucking wanna know.
oh boy, i hope time could just freeze.
