life is stressful. i feel like everything is coming down. pressure pressure and some more pressure. when will it all end ? i feel like i'm just moping around the house finding some sort of inspiration to motivate me to do something. or maybe even something fascinating to happen, but of course, i'll just be told to continue dreaming.
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i have not yet found a reason or meaning to carry on with what i am suppose to be currently doing(studying). i haven't gotten much sleep lately either. that could be a possible cause for the multiple pimples that has been sprouting. ugly ugly ugly. so, i HAD to seek out a 'cure' for this poor face of mine. middle of the night; 11+, i asked my dad to text my aunt who lives in malaysia to ask her how does she keep her face in such a good condition. not to mention flawlessly fair and no blotches as well. dang, how much i envy her. method of hers- lots and lots of sunblock.
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i have been homeless for a few days now, BUT, my parents has finally found a place to stay in. it's somewhere in bradell(?), central of Singapore i think. that place is freaking amazing. it has 3 levels, a koi pond, backyard, balcony for every bedroom and also i get to rear a dog ! i absolutely can't wait to shift. i know it's no where near the east, but still, i'm pretty contented :)
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i've been watching the entire season of project runway yesterday for 10 hours straight. sigh sigh sigh, what damage have i done to my eyes this time(?). i love project runway and i doubt i'll ever get sick of it. after O's, i'm going to watch every single season of CSI: MIAMI. i'm having huge concerns about my hair lately. the only thing i'm satisfied about it is that it's black. i'll start giving more thought about it after O's.
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"i spent the night waste in sighs. your lips, your eyes. how much i regret to say goodbye"
hohoho :) my uncle came over to have dinner with us today. best part, i get to talk to my aunt on the phone too ! sometimes i think i talk too much, i know my aunt thinks so too /:
i love writing and typing, some sort of outlet i suppose. earlier on, de shun asked me to check out his new blog. some topics he talked about; pokemon, history text books, blah blah. to him, it was suppose to be entertaining ? came across as amusing to me :) however, i have to admit, it was peculiarly entertaining.
'i forgot to add before dad took the phone away from me, that i know about your bad perm ! it shall be my next new thing to laugh at :) and i don't know what u're reffering to just now on the phone(NOT CONVENIENT TO TALK ABOUT SUCH STUFF). u caused me to get embarrassed infront of 3 adults just now ! u owe me BIGGGG TIMMMEEE. will see u during chinese new year(dad has not booked the flight yet) i shall be more careful in typing now, since i now u check in pretty regularly !!! anyway, wish me luck for my O levels.' - aunty mei.
and btw, i am very proud that u did well. trust me. it's just that i don't know how to express myself in the approapriate way. i know that u find it hard as well, so please try to understand. but really, i am extremely happy.
good night, i need sleep NOW !
i can swear that the abs, the hair and the face fits the bill perfectly fine.
damn, i still feel nauseous /: and i'm still in a dilemma regarding my hair.
and great, i just got super bad news through my phone call to isabel. turns out that she's not going for tuition ): i'm skipping it :))
i'm so happy that the pair aren't giving up and are so so willing to hold on that bit longer just for each other. that's admirable, i swear ! that has courage, wisdom, loyalty and strength written all over it. so glad that it didn't turn out like the situation i got into. if you were that bit more persistent in what you want, i can tell you, that we'll make miracles happen.
"they say i deserve the best/better, but if the best isn't you, then i don't want it"
Tumblr ! <3
HOOKED ON TO PHOTOGRAPHS.
it was a dark dark lonely night, his face gleamed white and sharp in the moonlight. there was a huge hint of a curve in his thin nose. judging by the curvature of his chin and neck, he is defnitely my type of guy. his body angled in such way that exposes his lean body. 'mysterious, sexy, dashing', i thought to myself. my dressing for the night was definitely appropriate for an encounter with this man in handsome leather jacket. god god god, i thought to myself, should i brush shoulders with him and leave the street thinking what a lucky bitch i am ? or should i write my digits on a vanilla scented card and gently place it in his hand. of course, there is an ulterior motive, that is to be able to touch his maybe smooth but rigidly firm palms. with every inch nearer i got to him, the more i started to stumble on my footsteps, just like desperate moth in lamplight. finally, before i knew it, i was already standing right beside him. he gave a slightly crooked smile- my stomach fluttered, exposing his gleaming set of white teeth. a wink came next. i was much more intrigued and at the same time, appreciatively enjoying this love seeking game that we started unknowingly. of course, there were no words involved, it was just a silent affair-
there's only one thing on my mind right now; shopping. the moment O levels are over, i swear i'm catching the first flight to KL :))
i made a friend who's staying in france. surprisingly, her command of english is quite good for a french. i wish i knew how to speak french so it'll be easier for us to communicate. i can't believe i'm even considering making a trip down there for the second time.
another group of people came by to view the house, and i can't help but to snort in disgust. they walked out the second they came in, just because the design of the house wasn't to their liking. ASSHOLES !!!
i'll make things better when the year ends(i hope she'll budge).
it's another 40 plus plus days before the end of misery(thank god for that).
i'm so in a twit.
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on first thoughts, i just wanted photography, but on second thoughts, i think i'll settle for drums and photography.
so many things to do but with so little time, i THINK i understand the phrase, 'learning takes place your whole life' now.
i hate the phrase 'knowledge is power', don't bother to ask why.
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i can't believe i went to school just for an hour yesterday and today !!!
shu xin's laughter became excessively louder than usual(weird).
started reading another book by agatha christie. i never did knew her first book was published in 1920. no wonder the book is written in old english & french.
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i'm debating in my head on whether to get my hair permed or just leave it the way it is.
i just realised also that FHM stood for 'for him magazine' !
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i absolutely love the words vexatious and mademoiselle.
oh oh ! and the word manservant too(i know it sounds queer).
i just realised something while talking to G. everything makes so much sense now :))
and sweetheart, the poleroids are under my pillow; wishing that u'll somehow appear in one of my dreams-
urrgghh, i hope the pictures aren't exposed too much.
it's 9/9/09
thought of taking photos since it's so called an auspicious day. (i sound sentimental)
good girls go bad.
went for the hawker fair today, and daddy bought a mercedes benz as a new car. the suede brown interior is gorgeous. one day, i swear i'm getting the lamborghini.
i hope i can watch vampire diaries on the net and not pay to watch through mio tv /:
AND OH MY GOD ! I'D NO IDEA THAT LUCAS TILL IS ONLY 3 YEARS OLDER THAN ME !? SUHWEET ! THAT GUY IS A SERIOUS HEART THROB, AND HE HAS THE MOST HEART WRENCHING SMILE EVER.
OH YEA, DID I MENTION THAT I LOVE THE NAME LEIGHTON AS WELL ? OTHER THAN CARTER THAT IS :)))
sweeter than heaven, hotter than hell.
it's the time of the day again; evening.
it makes you think of sun dried leaves,
the sky painted crimson and gold,
and a walk in the park with the camera man behind sneaking a few shots here and there.
a familiar structure stood in the distance.
yes, it was old, plain and dull coloured.
you swaggered a little here and there, with that old weathered stick in your hand.
by the time u reached the once familiar doorstep,
the heart was already filled with overpowering emotions that could not be contained.
the reason is because, you're finally home.
you look at that dishevelled piece of work.
on closer inspection, you realise that it's you yourself, staring into the mirror.
u've gone on such a long and taxing journey of discovery,
that u come home disbelievingly looking at a person whom u barely know.
it wasn't just the appearance, it was more than that, much more.
urrgghh, i hope the pictures aren't exposed too much.